Morals vs Ethics

...and to have a huge heart that cant always forgive and forget - hurts...its a painful feelings with a loss of breathe my chest is tight with the regretful feeling of losing you...alone maybe not in reality but in my mind there is this empty space and not a word out of my mouth to you can change the situation anymore - you no longer exist to hold my hand thru all the rough times and the thru all of the happy times...i walk alone as i walk im looking around at all the people - walking towards me is this couple...and the gurl she has this sparkle in her eye as she look up to her boi...and he looks down at her with the most intent listening i have ever seen a male posses....she smiles as she talks - and he smiles as he listens....hand and hand they are conquering the world together ... hand in hand they dont let eachother walk alone...and i smile at the concept and long for the ability to feel the warmth of a moment like that...the warmth of HIS hand holding mine - whoever HE is -
...and i fall short but how am i falling...will someone tell me my flaws so i continue to fix myself - everyday im fixing myself from the broken down wreck i became...to someone worth loving..and when will i stop pushing away the love and falling into rage

fairytales are real i can feel it in my heart and all around
i just cant wait until i can stop writing about my heartbreak in my blogs and start writing my fairytale ending

soon enough