Purple Highlighter

Ive been avoiding the blogger for alomst a month now...it sits in the back of my mind and i guess im finally ready to move tit forward...write about the past month as best as i can...Matt still has an insane amount of power over me...he cannot stop texting me especailly in my down points throughout the day...he catches me off guard and he wont leave me alone....so what do i do...i fucking fall for him agian! Seriously will someone just save me already? I hung out with him this past friday...the first since he broke my heart, and it was amazing we had our old time laughs and i just looked into his eyes and i cant forget how passionate i am about him. He told me that he wants me to get over him...but at the same time he dosnt....and im the type to hold onto the words that give me the most hope...so in my mind all i can think of is how to not be over him. Last night he told me that the potential to get back together exists...only we have to start off friends...he claimes that its too hard to be with me...what i dont understand is how it was so easy to give up everything to be with him, yet he cant find the initiative to feel the same...but instead the exact opposite. And when i go to sleep he haunts my dreams, but since i hung out with him the dreams have subsided and i feel like i can breath agian, but this stress still exists, one where i long for him day in and day out. I just want him to kiss me like he used too, hold me like there is no one else in the entire world. I cant get enough of him, but im not sure how much longer i can wait for him to come around and take my hand...why do i have to wait on someone who broke my heart...? where is his undying love?

Nick Turnbull - Has a way with words....he wants to marry me...not right away but i have to find a way to Australia now...i dont think its possible...he asked some gurl to marry him and she said no....so of course im the only one who is ever going to stick around in his life cause i see the good in people...so he comes crying to me....then deletes me out of his life and the second i tell him that i would marry him...he is on the other line on my phone telling me everything i want to hear and more...his commitment has never existsed all he can see is how pretty i am...and yah im different but am i good enough for him...hes amazing yet he has his imperfetions...so what the hell am i supposed to do now? life is just twisting and turing...and all i want is a perminant love...one everlasting and true...then things would loss there stress and i could breathe agian

p.s. Annahelle moved her ass out ;) fuck yah