I cant breathe

If there was one day when i needed Theron the most...its would have been today. I cant breathe...i cant feel my body, and im soo sick. Inhaling the smell of weed has killed my immune system, and i cant believe that i thought a bong was a vase until someone started putting their face on it. So here i am laying in bed...and i feel like im dying, i cant get up...i cant barely move. This week was a lesson...one big eye opening lesson. Emotions have been running at their highest and its time to let go. Im killing myself with all these hopeless memories. My phone is completely silent, and i think thats what gets to me the most, is that no one really cares anymore. I dont blame anyone for the sickness i feel inside. I just wish that Theron wouldnt have walked out on me, i wish he cared enough to fight. He is letting me go...and i suppose he wants me to do that same. My heart is considerably damaged by even the mere thought of him never being in my life agian. But i will do what he wishes, and i will respect his decisions. Because i cant change the world and be incontrol of everything. I long to be in the perfect relationship...but in the end Theron was the best i will have ever had, he treated me like a princess....he thinks im pretty without makeup...hes smart and handsome, and he care....he actually gives a damn
he took care of me...but he didnt take care of me today when i needed him the most...so this is fate...he isnt here...and he is letting me go...
so im letting this go...and is hurts like hell to write that, but it hurts like hell even more to picture Theron with any other gurl
but he deserves a less demanding relationship, and i deserve to be alone and i deserve to let everything go
but letting everything go...means being dead

Theron => I Love You