Moderation

...and finally August ends...a month filled with parties, love, heartbreak, new beginnings, and rough endings. It put me in a place of doubt, one where i would rather not look back at this month...it showed me how quickly things can change....how out of nowhere your whole life can alter and your stuck walking down a completley different path then what you anticipated. I put my whole heart out there on the line....it was broken....but then i gathered the strength to pick up the pieces...now all thats left is repairing the damage. Right now my feelings are indifferent, it was a mildly quick relapse and i realize now how many people care about me...its just letting go of the boi that i wanted to care for me...but he dosnt....this leaves me in a difficult position....one where moving on is the only option, because to dwell on him would be a waste of the time i so desperatley need to fill with happiness and love. And all i ever needed in life was someone who would do anything to make me laugh...and nothing to make me cry, someone who appreciates how caring i am...how much i have to offer. Love is life and the moral majority are afraid of the word love...love is then defined as fear...and yes when you fall in love your putting your heart out there...potentially to be broken...but the potential to be loved back its so much greater then the pain...and i would endure the most painful of heartbreaks as long as someone loved me with all there heart at one point or another. You have to realize that time may heal...but its the people around you that make your heart heal faster...its the happiness you share with even a stranger...and the happiness between you and your best friend....its the quick smiles and the short hello that can pull you up from the deepest darkest hole. Life is about putting your heart at risk...smilling at the little things...and making as many friends as you can...its the journey of a life time i would rather share it with everyone i know then on my own.